Still Torturing Myself

*****Update at bottom*******

Back in December of 2005 I made a backup CD of my desktop. I just found it in a stack of CD's on the side of my desk.

Yes, this is still the on my mind. Daily I am reminded and lament about my lost pictures, scheming, plotting, scrounging for ideas about how to retrieve them. I'm obsessed, no, haunted by the thought. Because they are not gone, they are just momentarily inaccessible. Which makes it even more difficult for me to move on.

Unfortunately, the files on the CD were the ones I was 90% glad that were gone. Early homeschooling downloads, planning forms, etc... Things that I spent so much time on that I couldn't justify just throwing them in the trash. But yet, things that were not of much use anymore.

Except my tax returns, I am now reminded that I no longer have copies of my tax forms from the last 4 years. Sigh.

But, at least it's MY choice now on whether or not I want to bring them back onto my hard drive.

On a brighter note, I ordered a new operating system and it's due to arrive sometime this week! It has a built in back up program which I will be taking FULL advantage of.

********UPDATE********

Upon further inspection of the piles of stuff on the side of my desk I found 10 discs full of pictures!!!!!! I used to back up, I remember now...

Signage

How can you tell that you've tutored too many teens with their temps. ?

When you tell them that this sign means...

"Watch for Mom's pushing children into the street"

Aftermath

Since the crash of our beloved hard drive (which I have been referring to BHDC - before hard drive crash), I've been feeling sorry for myself. Moping around, focusing all my creative energy into rebuilding what we had lost. (re-) Finding websites and widgets we used daily, racking my brain trying to remember what it was that my computer did automatically each day, scrounging for things to sell to finance our external hard drive purchase, and of course crying over my lost pictures.

Well, maybe I haven't been that pathetic.

I have realized though, that a big chunk of what is now gone had actually been a burden to me. Even though they didn't take up space like the clutter on my cupboards, the files containing e-books, digital media, lesson plans... were always there, taunting me, tempting me, mocking my ability to use them now or put them in the trash. The someday I saved them for would probably never have come anyway. So, now they're gone, and I am breathing freely most of the time.

The blank slate that used to contain too much, now contains only the necessities and I sort of like it.

I do wish I had my pictures though.

Maybe I am that pathetic.

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I Wonder If This Is What Happened

Karen over at The Adventures of Karen posted a video similar to this...It got us thinking...

Is this what happened to our computer?



It made my day!

10 Words For Today

Sometimes the words are there but the sentences just don't come.

Sometimes a story needs to be told even if I can't form a complete thought.

Some days are like that.

10 words for today:

4 words: not.a.good.day
3 words: hard.drive.crash
2 words: lost.alot
1 word: sigh




I just can't seem to stop there though.

4 words: grateful.for.extra.computer
3 words: lost.my.bookmarks
2 words: forgot.passwords
1 word: frustrating

4 words: not.life.or.death
3 words: but.still.upsetting
2 words: work.lost
1 word: forever

4 words: purchase.external.hard.drive
3 words: back.up.regularly
2 words: PDF's.movies...
1 word: EVERYTHING!

The End.